Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Shouldn't Have

These size 6R American Eagle "super skinny" jeans are cutting into my fat rolls. This pair fit me fine at 130 and even 138, but started to get uncomfortable after I got past 140 and then 145. 148 this morning, I am a disgrace.

I joined a gym that's just down the street but I've used it no more than 5 times so far. I have to cancel it for my finances sake, it's dumb to pay for something I almost never use.

Yesterday and the day before were lost days. My city was sent back into lock down mode because of yet another snow storm. So I spent all day monday with my boyfriend, watching movies and having sex and eating pizza and chinese. Tuesday I was alone, but I repeated monday's activities except for the sex. Now, two days later I am awakening from my hazy marathon binge and I feel awful about myself. why do I keep doing this?

I cannot wait for summer to come.

3 comments:

  1. Have you got any exercise equipment at home? As far as finances go, I love my aerobic step. It was maybe $40AUD and isn't going to break anytime soon, plus it's probably the most intense cardio I get except for the elliptical.

    I hope the rest of the week is better for you. Take care <3
    xxxx

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  2. It's going to be okay. I'm so sorry. Hang in there and take care of yourself.
    <3 Lee

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  3. you'll be okay, girl. just give yourself time. congrats on the boyfriend, dunno if i've said that yet :) probably not since i've been MIA (sorrry) <3 but he sounds totally cute. take care, jax xx text me if you're ever bored~ i'm still here for you.

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