I weigh 143 again. Almost 15 pounds up from my low last August. Getting lots of motivation from my fitbit and the new pokemon go app to go outside and gain steps, but I need to get my food intake under control. I'm bored and smoking too much pot and lonely so all I want lately is to hide in a dark place and eat sweet things and chips for hours. I know sugar is enemy #1, but I'm so addicted to it, I can't stop. I just love sugar so much.
Today:
coffee with half and half
sweet cream iced coffee from starbucks (currently sitting in starbucks writing this and a few cover letters for internships I probably won't get because I'm not a student. I wasted so much fucking time while I was in school earning money when I should have been earning experience. I'm such a dumbass.)
walked around the park where my sister runs a day camp to find pokeballs and hunt new pokemon. feel like a nerd but I love it.
cried in the kitchen because I feel so trapped and like my life is being wasted while I sit in my house and do nothing and get fat.
I need to find some new resolved for my diet so at least I can lose weight while I'm home with nothing else to do. Get back into exercise videos and become vegan or something.
I've wondered what you were up to :)
ReplyDeleteI remember the feeling when you come home and things are just the same even though you have changed a lot. That's why I move so often and try to travel as much as I can, to get away. What about teaching English in Japan?