I'm applying to jobs again. Which always makes me feel like an enormous failure. I was lazy in college and didn't apply to any worthwhile internships, waitressing and goofing off instead. Any internship that could lead to experience and later work require me to be earning college credit or to have graduated in the past year, which is no longer true.
I have no journalism experience, few skills, and I don't interview well. Any job that seems interesting to me feels unattainable. Just reading job requirements and applying to things makes me sob and sink into a sad space in my head that makes me want to binge and stop thinking about this awful awful job searching process. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
So here I am. Crying and feeling absolutely worthless.
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ReplyDeletesorry you're having a rough time. sending you lots of positive vibes, hugs, and love
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It is hell, going through that looking-for-a-job pressure, especially if one wants something more fulfilling :/
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your life is fascinating. ive read you from start to finish. you have done more, traveled more and experienced more than most people your age. keep with the high protein/fat, especially in the morning load up. your brain sounds like mine, ritalin helps, it has also helped me stop binging. it doesnt give me a rush, just keeps me on track.
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