Waiting

Matt comes home tomorrow from the Middle East. Kimmi is off the wall excited and I'm happy for her too. But hearing what he says and thinking of how great they are for each other makes me really jealous and sad for myself. I want to have some one who I love like that. I know what I have to do about Vishwa now, I think it has to end. I'm not happy waiting up for him all the time. Even though it's great when he is around, the point is that he never is. I'm always waiting up for his calls and then finding that my phone is never going to ring, he's never going to text back. I know he doesn't do this on purpose, but it's still killing me. But classically, I'll change my mind on this in a few hours.