first world problems

I feel like such a failure!!

pledging fucking sucks. I mess up everything and I don't even know why I'm doing this anymore. Will it even be worth it? it's so goddamn expensive and I need to be saving money right now. plus girls are bitchy and I hate everyone anyway.

I thought that maybe this was my way to have friends and be normal but I can't do this. it's just too much. and it's not like anyone likes me anyway.

oh God. I hate being me so much.