Today I find out if I got a bid or not. I'm freaking out about it cause it would mean a lot to me to get into a sorority. I need that group of girls who love me and want to be with me all the time. Plus, I think pledging would be a lot of fun, even if it is super draining.
On Friday night we had a mixer with the sorority's brother frat. All the rushes from both the fraternity and the sorority met up and went together. They had lots of alcohol and it was a fun party. I met a few nice guys and I'm really getting to know the other girls who are rushing with me. Then on Saturday morning they had us wake up early to make valentine's day cards for children in the hospital.
Saturday night we had a cheese and wine party where all the sisters asked us personal questions. It was really nerve wracking- the questions were really difficult and I was having trouble coming up with answers that wouldn't make me look stupid. Then there was a question about your biggest struggle and some girl went before me and talked about how her grandfather committed suicide and I just lost it. I was a mess of tears. Then it was my turn and I talked about the ordeal I went through with my step mother and how much that's made me question my worth.
Later that night I went over my friend's apartment. I smoked pot for the first time and had some more alcohol at his place. Smoking is weird, not sure I like it, but people say it gets better if you do it a bit more. We talked about rushing and all that, but one of my best friends who was rushing for the frat didn't get a bid which sucks.
I hope the sisters see something good in me, but I'm not sure they will. I'm not pretty like all the other girls, and I'm not very smart. I'm fun sometimes, but there are a lot of times when I feel like shit and I just curl back into myself.
I also have to get interviews for the Patriots v. Giants super bowl for the radio show I work for. I can't believe I'm doing what I've been dreaming about. But I'm so hungover...
You are smart, pretty, and you sure sound like a lot of fun (didn't someone once tell you you were a cute drunk).
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you got the bid, they'd be crazy not to want you.
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What ordeal with your step mother?
p.p.s GIANTS GIANTSGIANTS WHOOOO
I really don't understand the whole American sorority thing but I hope you have tons of fun anyway.
ReplyDeleteIt's also amazing that you are doing what you want to do! You should be proud.
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good luck on the bid! it seems like a big deal there no? in Europe we don't have such things..
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agh hangovers suck. that's why I try to stay away from alcohol (and too many calories). I used to smoke quite a bit, but I stopped because I didn't really like the person I became because of it. The feeling you get is nice, all floaty in a happy haze, but it's a lot harder to think, and gives you the munchies really bad :( at least you've been to a frat party though, I still haven't! It's definitely on my list, I feel like it won't be college if I don't go to at least a couple. And I'm sure the sisters will like you - you opened up about something really personal, and that takes guts. People respect guts. <3RaeLynn
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