Friendship

I had a breakdown and started melting like I tend to do. I was IMing P like I do when I'm upset. We ended up talking about who you are and who I am and all that. Then I asked him stuff about himself. I realized that I have been waaay too selfish with him. I only take take take. and he told me that that's how he is in all relationships, he always gives but never takes in return. I ended up feeling really bad. I'm such an awful friend to him.

Then after school P called and she was crying and it was all complex with issues over R and moving and all that. We talked for a half hour and it was a good conversation. Then later on I ended up having another conversation with M, who also happened to be crying. In both cases I knew only a little of what to say, but I still feel like I helped in the end. I was a good friend today at least =)

I think God is trying to show me that I can be a good friend. I'm not all bad. I also think that He is showing me that I'm not as lonely as I thought. I will make it out of this thing okay in the end.

hmmm. "in the end" I keep saying that. I think it's the catch phrase of the day.