Majority

The tough thing about being in the majority is being wrong. You feel terrible for things that others cut from the same stone have done. I'm white and straight and I'm Christian and Scottish and I'm rich. If I were a guy, I would be in a group of people that has hardly ever gotten any mistreatment. I am among the upper class, the the oppressors, the majority of today. It makes me feel terrible and squeemish when slavery or gay rights or poverty come up. I'm the one who has to feel shameful, even if I personally didn't do anything wrong.

Being in this group, it's also hard to break away without feeling unappreciative or like a brat. If I decide that Christianity isn't right for me, or that I don't feel like I should be blamed for oppression of other races then I look terrible. I'm a reluctant WASP, the classic dissenter.

I've been thinking lately that I can't accept Christianity even though I want to. The point of the bible is that everything in there is supposed to be true. There are so many tough issues in there, and the bible has answers to a lot of them. But sometimes I don't agree. It comes down to the questions of right or wrong and faith or doubt. Even though I want to believe that God is out there and that he loves me, I can't support intolerance to gays or being subordinate to men. It doesn't fit with my sense of right and wrong, and I cannot accept it. And if part of the bible isn't true, I can't pick and choose what to believe.