I weigh 144 pounds right now. down about 5 since thanksgiving. I'm trying to remember to be happy about that progress.
I'm also on my period. I hate my period. but who doesn't?
oh, and btw, I'm home on Christmas break.
today I sat on my butt and watched TV and filled out end of semester surveys for school. So boring :/
I had plans to go to my old high school and see my friends for lunch, but my dad took the car so I couldn't make it. I called a friend to pick me up, but she's a bitch and wouldn't she said it would take too long. In other words, I'm not worth the gas money or the time. I get that the lunch period is short, but I would have picked her up if the situation were reversed and I wouldn't have given it a second thought. Just another example of how mean my home friends are. I really hate them sometimes. and yeah, I'm overly dramatic, but they're overly apathetic about how much pain I'm in. after she called me back I cried for half an hour and called a friend from college. the college friend is a whole heck of a lot nicer than my home friends.
I ate too much today. and then I did a ton of crunches and push ups and went for an hour and half walk. while I was walking I remembered how God puts us through trials. How hard things in our lives make us better. Being fat and ugly and having terrible friends makes me a stronger person. it makes me more compassionate. I can do this, but it's gonna hurt like hell.
I think I'm gonna go take some laxies and eat a clementine.
I love how you can see the positive in so much negative.
ReplyDeleteKeep on, keepin' on.
There is always a bright spot somewhere.
We are all here for you and we all believe in you.
Hang in there.
*hugs*
Stay positive, stay beautiful. <3
hey a 5lb loss is superb! Well done you!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I have a friend like that too, I know how you feel. Sometimes I feel like it's worth my effort to keep being friends with her. There are days when I just want to give up on her.
You are the exercise queen! Honestly! I wish I could be like, half as motivated as you to do exercise!
ooh, crunches and pushups~ amazing. simply amazing. remind me to get back to exercising sometime. :p
ReplyDeletei'm glad you're flying higher, little butterfly. don't let the world weigh you down. i like it when you're happy and cheery and delightfully positive. <3
it's like someone turned on the sun over here! :)
What is that word? ex-er-cise? Oh fuck judging by other comments looks like we've all been slacking lately. Kudos to you for keeping it up. That's the thing about highschool, for me anyway, you kind of just fall into a circle of friends, and in university you really get to pick and choose who you mesh with. Don't get me wrong, I love me home friends, you just get exposed to a whole other group of people at uni you would never have met otherwise. All the best, -G
ReplyDeletedouble comment, haha, but merry christmas, jax <3
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