Restrict

For the first time in like forever I'm managing to restrict. I'm not the healthiest but I am managing to eat a lot less than I have been this summer.

On the 25th I weighed 146.6 and I had a net intake of 1,651
26th- 145.4 net 1522
27th- 144.8 net 1,101
28th- 144.2 net 964

And then a miracle happened. I woke up this morning to 141.4, lower than I've seen in weeks and almost 3 pounds less than yesterday. I know this could just be a fluke but I'm hopeful it's a kickstart towards real loss. I had a strawberry and yogurt smoothie and a bagel with cream cheese for lunch and a slice of my dad's banana bread around 8pm, thats all for the day. Today I'm restricting again.
so far-
v8 juice and a nectarine (122)
chicken, mushroom, spinach sandwich (I picked at it and left most of the bread) (340)
pop chips (100)
diet tea (0)

I think I'm going to have another smoothie now since I'm getting hungry and I don't want to binge. But I'm counting yesterday as the first binge-free day and I'll try and see how long I can go before I crack.

Imagine if I really was going to start losing again? I could maybe reach 136 for the first time since October 2011. That's one of my big benchmarks since it's the highest weight for the "healthy" bmi range. yeah. I'm a fat loser, I know. and it's all about being one step closer to 121 by my 21st birthday. if I get there early, I'll aim lower, but that's the plan for now.

Send me good energy, I need this.