We could be alone together
Even if we aren't the same
You aren't like all of the others
You understand why I'm insane
I miss P. And V is only nice to me to be polite. He's sweet and he doesn't want to break my heart. M is sad and pale. She's waiting for things that will never happen. She thinks that if she stays quiet long enough someone will notice and swoop down to care about her every wish and dream and thought. I suppose we aren't so different. Except that she still cares about highschool and she has talent. I have wistful dreams and gloomy musings. The people who fill my day don't really know me. And with all the heartbreak and lies that have been going around lately I'm not sure I want to let new people in. I wish I could change the past so my future could be better. I wish I truely loved someone and that they loved me back. Someone who wanted me for what I am right now and saw things indidnt see. I wish I wish I wish!
I know all the things I need to do. All the changes I need to make. I'm aware of all the things I do wrong that I need to make right. But I'm a sad song stuck on repeat. I know I'll be okay someday but today I'm not. Didn't I say that last month? And the month before? I just need to get out of this place and start fresh. A change in scenery. But mostly, I need to find myself a best friend.
love youself like you want other people to love you. it helps. <3
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry maura. I didnt mean it. I was feeling bad and I couldn't help being bitter. I didn't know you were reading. I'm sorry
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