message from the past

I received a letter from my eighth grade self today. It was really sad. I sound the same, basically. I hated myself and said I was paranoid about people only feeling sorry for me. I talked so much about how ugly I was. I mean, I was ugly, but reading that broke my heart. I feel so bad for 13-year-old jackie.

I hope when I look back 4 years from now, when I'm graduating college, I won't still be the same. I hope I will have tackled these problems and moved on. I want to be happy in 4 years.

this weight issue has been going on for far too long. I need to fix it so I can just be happy and not that same sad little girl.

 I graduate tomorrow. wow.