i have such poor judgement. sigh.
had a good day food-wise:
-caesar salad 520
-pb crackers 200
-rice and veggies 80
-chicken 80
bad day money-wise, though. bummer.
and! four days straight of exercise. go me!
I got my second piercing today:
I got lost on the way to the mall. I hate highways and I've got not sense of direction. Next time I'm bringing a map and a GPS and a boy scout.
I didn't get scared and it didn't hurt. I just wish it had been more of an event- that I had my friend with me to pick out earrings and hold my hand even though I wasn't afraid. It made me feel so lonely.
There are a lot of things that we are capable of doing alone. in fact, I think I'd have no trouble living alone. but that's not the point in living. I think I lost sight of that in all my self-hatred; being fat isn't the end of the world. I'd like to change it, yes, but it isn't the thing that should consume my thoughts. that's my new year's resolution: put others first (but don't compromise my own well being, after all, life is all about balance.)
haha I laughed at the "boy scout" so much!
ReplyDeleteit looks amazing!! :)
You look so pretty :)
ReplyDeleteAnd i really admire your bravery for posting pictures of yourself. I'm too afraid I'll be recognized.
Congratulations on the realization of needing balance thing. I wish you the best of luck.
I'm gonna miss you if you stop posting! Do you tell people you know that you blog? None of my friends/family/workmates know about my blog. All hell would break loose if they did!
ReplyDeleteAlso, nice piercing. I've got quite a few myself. I've got 2 lobe ones too! Did you get it done with a needle? I got my first ones done with a gun (which hurt so much because it jammed) and all of my other ones with a needle. Can barely feel the needle at all (except the cartilage piercings of course but they don't hurt that much either).
Sorry, rambling about piercings!
i have three piercing in my ear now. (: my friend does it for me, so it is quite the event to go to his house and get it done. haha.
ReplyDeletei love you darling. c: <3 hope you have a good day.