I wake up in the morning and cry in the shower. I go to sleep at night and cry until I fall asleep. mostly in the middle of the day I find enough distraction to not think.
I'm afraid I'm not good enough to be a journalist. I know I'm not good at very much else that could give me success in some other career field. I'm absolutely positive that I'm not pretty enough for someone to fall in love with me.
Mostly, I just want to curl up and go to sleep forever. I don't want to listen to the news anymore. I can't deal with the numbers and words and the images. I'm just done. but I have no idea where to go from here or what I could do besides this that I wouldn't regret letting go of school and my media dreams.
why can't I stop crying?
don't worry. I spent all last quarter crying, as you said, in the morning in the shower and at night to sleep. but it wasn't over my career path, it was over a boy, a stupid boy. point is, don't worry - it'll pass. Time heals all things! <3RaeLynn
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