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I currently weigh 160 pounds, which is humiliating for me to write. When I wrote here before, I weighed 134.

Starting college, I promised myself I was going to lose the freshman 15, but that didn't happen. Instead I gained around 25 pounds. Actually, I really only gained 15 pounds at school, the other 10 pounds were over the summer break so far.

I've had a problem with not eating before, and I've always been really upset about the way I eat. Recently, I've had a huge problem with binging. I keep track of my calories and exercise on my phone, but I often lie to myself because seeing the real numbers makes me cry.

I'd like to restart this blog because I really miss having followers and reading about other people's lives. I also think it will help me to find some motivation.


Also embarrassing to admit, I have no job and no money. I can't find anyone to hire me. And with no money I can't buy new clothes, which I need because I'm too fat. my life sort of stinks.