I went to go see her because she just had a breast reduction and her boy friend just broke up with her. so, really tough week. but then, as usual, I managed to fuck up. I had a fucking cream based potato soup and ice cream at her house. then on the way home I was so stressed from driving on the God damned turn pike with construction and poring rain that I stopped in at a wendy's to pee and get iced tea. then on a whim I also got a chicken caesar wrap. I am so stupid! do you know how many calories all of that food is? 1,246. that's how many. and I didn't even to get any more exercise besides my morning bike ride.so feeling terrible I drank a glass of water and swallowed three laxies. I'm planning on doing 1 hour of pilates and 1 hour of biking hills today. I just cannot mess up like that again.
anyway.
I want to get an internship this fall. I don't feel like doing a pointless job again, I want real experience doing actual real world things. So I'm trying to invest a lot of energy into finding a paid internship that is somewhat related to my school work. If I actually knew what that would end up being, it would be a big help. See, I used to be a journalism major. but I'm not curious or brave enough to be a journalist, so I'm planning on switching to marketing communications. we'll see if that will work out at all.
my dream for when I finish college is changing slightly. I want to be involved in audio production somehow, like NPR or PRI or something. but I don't know how or doing what. I also have a vague fantasy of starting my own little shop. I'd sell something cute like jewelry or fabric or paper or something. I'm not really sure. All I know is that I'm not the type of person who lives to work. I like to have time to myself as well.
day 9- do people make negative comments about your weight?
my sister always makes fun of me being fat. but other than that, most people are just really polite. more than anything else, I'm doing this so I don't have to call myself fat anymore.
day 10- what have you given up to lose weight?
I really miss bagels. I don't know why I love them so much, but there is nothing I crave more than a warm jewish bagel with philadelphia cream cheese. mmmm
Internships are really worth the time.
ReplyDeleteI'm a photography student and I did a photography internship this summer with a modeling agency. Although I wasn't paid, it was definitely one of the most valuable experiences I've had so far in my life in the field I want to go into as well as in the business world. Good luck :)