I'm with this guy. He's really sweet to me and constantly tells me how beautiful I am. It's wonderful to be around him. But on Saturday night we had sex without a condom and he didn't pull out. I was so freaked out! He was totally nice and took me to get the morning after pill. I almost cried when I took it, it just felt so wrong and terrible.
He feels bad, like it's his fault. But really it's both of our faults and I don't blame him at all. Despite that, I still feel terrible, and the worry over getting pregnant is making me crazy. I know there's almost no chance but... you know. It's still scary.
I wish it weren't true, but the whole ordeal makes me feel extremely lonely. I don't really have people I want to talk to about it, and I feel awful telling the guy. I don't want him to feel guilty. I scheduled an appointment with planned parenthood, but I'm scared to go. What if it's really scary there? I'm so nervous.
The one great thing about all this is that I'm eating less and I've gotten down to the 130's again, the first time I've seen those numbers since 2011. I'm hoping by July I'll be solidly in the 120's. I know that sounds slow to you guys, but I've always been slow to lose, even with lots of diet and exercise.
Wish me luck, lovelies.
The morning after pill is a life saver, not something horrible. Horrible is having a child when you're not ready for it. Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteHow kind of you. Yes, I realize it's helping me a lot wich is why I took it. But to me this was a frightening and traumatic experience. So don't go telling me what was and wasn't horrible.
DeleteOh that is scary :( I hope all goes well. Planned Parenthood is a good place. I think it won't be scary, but definitely understand the fear! I still haven't gone for my "lady doctor" appointment...ever...because I'm so nervous. Good luck hun!
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