that urgent feeling

Every few months my thoughts of losing weight and finally being skinny start to feel urgent. Like a panic, and I have to lose 5 pounds by next week.

I spent a long time last night thinking of every off-beat diet I could call to mind while I was trying to fall asleep. I think I'm going to do this one I read about years ago. I don't remember all the specifics, but basically you try to eat as many natural fats as you can (olive oil, nuts, fish, eggs, etc.) and stay under 800 calories a day. It's supposed to help your body burn more fat or something.

So what I'm going to do is a diet based on that. I'm going to just try to cut out as many carbs and sugars as possible and focus on getting tons of healthy fats, proteins, and non-starch vegetables as possible. I also love greek yogurt, so I'm going to let myself have that, too. The hard part is going to be family dinner. We have a lot of pasta and bread and rice. Maybe I'll just start cooking (lol I'm a terrible cook.)

I read through my blog posts from last summer. I'm glad I was so dedicated to working out, I feel like it gave me a good base of muscle. Also, I'm starting out almost 15 pounds less than I did last summer, so I actually managed to lose a little weight and keep it off apparently  Of course, I wish I had been better through the winter so I would have been thinner now, but I have to be thankful for what I've got.

I might have to go to work today, but if I don't I think I'll mow the lawn and take my dog for a run. She loves to run and it tires her out for the rest of the day. If I do end up going to work I'll bring yogurt and a bag of walnuts with me to have for lunch/snack.

There's a lot going on in my life right now. I'm sort of seeing this guy, though our relationship is mostly sex. And I'm working two jobs and keeping up with a few hobbies and seeing friends. It's nice to be busy like this.