Took the day off work today. So far, I've spent it talking to my ex back in the states about what made us break up. Not sure why I'm torturing myself with this pointless conversation. I broke up with him, it was my choice, but still I go back to him asking him if he really meant all the hurtful things he said right after I ended it. It's cruel to him to ask, but I'm so curious. Hating myself for this massive waste of time and distracting myself from the real, good things I should be doing with my new life in Colombia.
The water in my bathroom stopped working the other day. Had to use my host mom's toilet, sink and shower and was too afraid to purge in there for fear that she might hear. I think I gained weight, but it's so hard to tell. Water is back now. Made cookies with a friend yesterday and ate pieces of them. Purged after she left, but I think too much time had passed and they were in me for too long. Purged breakfast today, too.
Starting a new exercise regimen today. Going to do a half hour of calisthenics each day, that's my new goal. Then I'll immediately sit down to do a half hour of spanish grammar practice. Better myself for an hour a day and stop mindlessly trolling through social media with all my free time.
Talking to my crush all the time. Our communication is so difficult but I'm so excited by this new darling little romance I have. Hope I can see him today or tomorrow!
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