It was warm where I live prematurely this year, but now we have gone back to average spring chilly-ness. the sunshine made me happy, but it also reminded me of how pale and chubby I am. I know that I'm not fat, but I am definitely not skinny or pretty. I'm average and forgettable. I have boring brown hair and freckles and pink chubby cheeks. I'm short, and recently I have become increasingly aware of how short my legs are. The only things i like about my appearance is that people say I look like my mother and my long eyelashes. I also sort of like the size of my feet, small but not too small. and I don't sweat in weird places like my hands or my upper lip or my back. just my nose mostly. Also I think I have a good nose and chin, not too pointy. If only they weren't covered in acne!
well enough of my poor self-esteem.
I had play practice today, and hardly knew any of my lines. how could I have gotten stuck in such a horrible dress? oh right, that's the part I was assigned. humph. I can feel the director's growing hatred for me. At least I have a new friend in V. He's nice and funny and talks to me even when he doesn't have to.
While writing this I am logged onto facebook. I'm waiting for P to chat me. He's on and so am I but he still hasn't spoken to me. it's been 10 minutes almost. I just hope he wasn't too offended by my critique of his driving yesterday...
I hate school work and doing stuff in general! I am so lazy and lethargic lately. I just want to be asleep always. blech! I hope I'm not sick or something. That would really stink. I should do either of my two research papers or else practice my lines or do my chemistry homework, but I am too lazy. hey, but at least I'm not stuck in a pit of sadness today. well, the day is not yet over, there is still time for that.
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