My stomach has been aching all day from so much worry. I told D and A and P. But I shouldn't have told D. Give him an hour and he'll flake out on you. I love spending time with him, but he's proven to be forgetful and sort of selfish. Anna is being sweet and so far reliable. I never should have told either of them though. They don't need to know and I shouldn't have told them. it's worry they don't need and more complication than I'd like.
Prom is quickly approaching. What to do? I don't have a dress or a date. P and M both don't have dates yet though. I doubt either will want to go. M hit me in the butt with a soccer ball today. How rude! but at least it was me and not someone else. I like the attention but I don't think I can handle having a crush on him again quite yet.
Dad still hasn't been to keen on sharing any information with me. I feel awful about it and I know that this is partly my fault. I wish I could talk to him without doing any damage. or at least know if he got my letter. I just wish I knew he was feeling this way so I could have talked to him. We have a lot of the same problems.
I was thinking- maybe this is proof of how strong I am. I'm dealing with more pressure and hostility but I haven't lost it yet. I guess this is a sign to me that I am strong, stronger than I thought I was at least. Maybe like M said a while back, I am meant to do great things later on with the strength I am building right now. I could help with someone who is going through similar things or deal with high pressure later on. I don't know what it will be but I do know that I will have strength to deal with what ever it is.
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