Cafe's and Diners

I ate at Fred's Breakfast for the first time this morning with Kimmi and Morgan. Then I hung out at the coffee shop in Peddlers (for only 5 and half hours) with Kimmi. Then I chilled at home for a while. Then I went to the Eagle Diner with Vishwa, Richie, Meghan, and Olivia. it's cafe's and diners today!

I was so happy to see Vishwa, but Meghan made me so mad. she is so mean to me =( I didn't kiss him but I should have. I really did miss him but I didn't show it. I forgot how much I like just being around him. Just sitting within a few feet made me so much happier.

And I needed it after the past few days. I've been feeling so sad. it's like a constant depression that I can't shake. I can feel it now too, but for the two hours with him it was alleviated. I took 5 advil yesterday hoping the pain would go away, but it didn't. I know it sounds stupid to say, but when I was swallowing them it felt logical. I don't want to die but a coma might be nice.

I was talking to Prateek and he told me he had a nightmare about me. that I would call him and tell him that I'm going to do it and then he is driving over to save me and then I say over the phone that I'm doing it and then the phone goes dead and then he wakes up. I feel so bad for giving him nightmares. But I guess it's true. I would call him last. I love him and trust him so much. But I can't see him all the time since he's so far. at least I can call him to chat for hours =) I just hate to talk about my problems when he sounds so happy. so I don't. not as much anyways.

I just can't wait for things to get better. they have to someday.