I'm a girl. And being girly shouldn't be an issue... but it is. Don't get me wrong- I love wearing dresses, my nails are currently a barbie shade of pink glitter, I secretly am in love with Joseph Gordon-Levitt, and my top drawer contains only make-up, hair clips, and tampons. But I don't really want to be the girl in a relationship. I love being held and I love being the dainty short one but I hate being paid for and worrying about weather or not he'll give me flowers or like my dress. the reason I hate being girly about relationship stuff is that I don't want to be that stereotype. the nagging, annoying, "let's talk" kind of girl. How do I get what I want without being such a, well, girl?
the other thing is, dear universe, is that V has never once told me that I look pretty, let alone beautiful. I know that it isn't true but I really wish he would lie to me. Spin me a nice romantic lie. Or maybe get me some flowers. I don't want a bouquet of roses, but when we're walking along, he might be the one that picks a wild daisy for me instead of D. I know that every relationship is different, but would it kill him to say or do even a tiny nice thing? I'm not going to say anything, but I'm going to start maybe acting a bit more girly around him to get him to notice. But Lord help him if he forgets my birthday!
yes, that doesn't seem fair he hasn't said it. and he wouldn't be lying if he did say it. guys are just... let's say, stupid. but then again, we're needy as... fuck. so...
ReplyDeletebut i know exactly how you feel. sometimes you'd rather have someone lie to you.
but also why can't we accept that maybe boys see different things in us?
have you ever told him he's beautiful?
just gonna stand there and watch me burn? it's alright because i like the way it hurts. just gonna stand there and hear me cry? it's alright because i love the way you lie, i love the way you lie.
ReplyDeleteeminem, right there for yaaa.