We went for all you can eat pizza at a cafe near my house. It was just me and the fam. We were having a really good time eating pizza and pasta and stuff and just joking when it happened. E and her sons walked in the door. bum bum bum!! it was shocking and eerie and frightening. All through the meal I sat there afraid. then we went out and I guess she spotted us, or maybe just C, but she yelled "hey! hey! aren't you going to come say hi?" I had a rush of pure panic and adrenaline. I bolted back into the restaurant and grabbed my dad's keys and then quickly walked to the car. I started shaking and panicking. I then texted Anna for some help but it didn't calm me down at all. Then i drove with my siblings in the car for the first time and they were freaking out and then i got more nervous and then it was just awful. I calmed down a bit but now as I write this I feel panic again.
I thought I could get over this. I thought I wasn't afraid of her anymore. but I'm so terrified. I could run so fast right now. I have so much adrenaline and panic. I keep saying panic but I have no better word. my hands go numb and my heart beats really fast and I get nervous and jumpy. I need to stop writing and calm down.
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