Sunshine

1..2..3.. Jump!

I jumped off a bridge and a lock into the canal today. C and V and I biked there from town. In total we biked 8.7 miles, which is sort of a lot if you think about it. When we got to the bridge we ran into this kid named Josh in my brother's class. He was 16 but he says he's been smoking since he was 12, a pack a day which just isn't right. He was crazy too, when we jumped off the locks he almost hit the concrete wall. And he pushed me off the bridge. I really wish C or V would have pushed him after that, but they didn't. Humph.

But over all a wonderful day. I finally got to spend time with V and it was wonderful. wonderfully wonderful. There were hardly any clouds (I have a nice sunburn as proof) and the river was lovely. I got to kiss him a whole bunch and he held my hand when we jumped off the bridge.



Okay so midway through writing that P finally called me back. So I had a nice conversation. Somehow we got on the subjeft of truth and lies and I had to tell him that I was lying to him about something, that I did have a secret. And that of course was that I have this blog. I couldn't possibly risk letting him find and read this because there is so much about him and things I don't want him to hear. But admitting I have secrets from him gives him more room to keep them from me. Given the horrible things he says in our more deep conversations, I dont want him to keep lots of secrets. He needs to find a shoulder to lean on, and I can only pray that he chooses mine.