Heartbreak and Love

"If this is what it feels like when it's over, then I don't know if love's worth it"

Is love worth it? Watching a friend go through heart break this week, I question the power that love has over us and whether or not it's healthy. He looks alternately extremely depressed and overwhelmingly defeated. He fell so fast and so hard. Theirs was a strong fast flame, the kind that made you jealous. They were so happy, so enveloped in their own world. But now he's been dropped out of that glorious colorful land of love back into the bland boring normal one, he's hit the ground with such force that it's knocked him out of his old spark and character. He's flat, stuck in another time, another version of himself.

Maybe love isn't healthy. At least not this kind. A love like that is like lightening. It strikes quick and beautifully, but with not enough power to sustain it, it leaves behind a shocked and burned victim where ever it hits. Berhaps its better to be a slow rolling thunder. Though not as beautiful or awe inspiring, it lasts long into the night.

I listened to an old broadcast from valentines day about love long into the relationship. It makes me wonder if I'll have the strength to hold on to one person for my whole life. Will I have the patience and willingness to make it work? Past the point where we both have changed? I'd like to believe that love can last into twilight of life, but that sort of love is rare. For long after the spark has burnt out, both parties are willing to stay and support each other in whatever that entails.

But hey, I've never even fallen in love before, how could I have any idea what real commitment is like?