Just slept through another fucking class. I'm the world's fucking worst student ever. I hate that about myself. and I kinda just hate the whole of myself, too. I mean, my family worked so hard so I could go to college and then I just go and blow it. I'm pretty sure I'm failing two of my classes, and the other two aren't looking so hot. I suck. That's all there is to it.
so I decided that I'm gonna not eat for the rest of the day. I think a good water fast is in order. If I have any desire to eat, I'll just remind myself that I'm failing school and that I don't deserve to eat. This way, if I can keep it up, at least when I fail school I won't be fat, too.
Then I can go abroad this summer and not scare the people there with my roundness. I can possibly fit in, be one of the thin beautiful girls on my missions team. well, we can work on thin anyway.
Try not to think of yourself this way. I know, I just wrote a post in pretty much the same tone, BUT you're a beautiful STRONG (usually) positive\optimistic person who will get through this. Don't water fast right away! You'll feel shitty and then you won't want to fast next time, go to just fruits and veggies, then liquid fast, THEN water fast.
ReplyDelete<3 you. feel better, I'm always here.
oh hun, you are so pretty, you're going to put everyone else to shame when you go abroad. Also, don't beat yourself up about sleeping in class. Seriously don't. Many of my friends slept through nearly every class in medical school, even after we calculated that we were paying $500 per day for the privilege of being in medical school, and they've all passed their qualification exams. I'm sure you're much smarter than you give yourself credit for.
ReplyDeleteAll I've done recently is sleep through my classes even though my final exams were the last week. I think I pulled trough with all right marks.
ReplyDeleteYou will be stunning when you go abroad, you can do it.
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