137.8

Remember when I said I was doing great? Remember when I said I wouldn't binge and purge anymore? haha it all ended today.

breakfast- smoothie
lunch- 1/2 salad and a peanut bar

I came home and just ate almost 600 calories worth of chips and fruit gummies. Then I had another 600 calories of pasta and sauce. I threw about half of everything up, cried for a while then put on nice make-up and a fancy black dress and went to a sorority event. I hate everything.

This guy I was seeing over the summer and I have been talking the last week and we decided I'd fly down to see him the first weekend of October. I really want to be 135 by then, which would be 8 pounds less than the last time I saw him. I want him to know that I'm working for it, and I want him to want me even more. If another day like today ever happens, I don't know if I'll reach my goal.