Anyway. I saw him for the first time in a long while and he was thrilled to see me. He just kept looking at me and smiling and he said twice "You look really good."
ugh. I get such a high off of things like that. Last time I saw him I think I weighed somewhere around 155 pounds and last night I weighed 139.2 just as I was leaving the house. He had to leave to go do some homework or whatever and I kissed him as he was trying to leave. I meant to just kiss him once, but he held me tighter and kissed me like he meant it. Then I looked at him and said "I think you were just leaving?"
I ended up sleeping with one of his frat brothers and leaving. Ha. I'm kind of a slut but I love it so much. I love feeling like an object of desire. And I love having sex. Is that such a crime?
I woke up this morning to such a beautiful number. 137.8. That's less than 2 pounds away from one of my biggest benchmark numbers. It's the point when I'll be in the "normal" bmi range, somewhere I haven't been since freshman year. From there it'll only be another 15 pounds to my 21st birthday goal of 121. I want to 136 by next weekend.
Enjoying sex is no crime. It's fun and amazing. You can do it with whomever you want, as long as you are okay with your choice, then no sluttiness at all.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the loss. Probably dropped off cuz of all that "exercise". Another good excuse to keep it up! lol