To myself

Maybe I should stop telling people my goals and dreams. Because I don't want them to wonder why I never achieve them, and I don't need the humiliation of them knowing I failed when I do. Really I should just keep it all to myself.

Yesterday I had waffles for breakfast with maple syrup and sweet. The whole meal ended up close to 1,000 calories. I walked and biked a lot, but it was still too much, especially at only 11am. I had rice and potatoes and Indian curry for dinner and pita chips and a granola bar when I was drunk.

Oh, the alcohol calories, too. Lots of those. I think it was 2 glasses of wine, 4 shots rum and a beer (plus a lot of marijuana for good measure.) It's too much for my own good.

Despite all this, and the fact that the day before was even worse, I'm so close to my goal. I was 136.6 this morning. I weighed myself and got 136.0 at first, a few times in a row. Then I weighed myself again a few minutes later and got 136.6. I think I'll stick with the higher one and just be happy with it. I need to keep up the losing streak and get to 135 as soon as possible. I want my calorie intake to stay comfortably under 1,000 for this week.