Thursday
I finally got my license! I know, it's bad that I'm 17 (18 in 5 months! eeep!!) and didn't have it yet, but parallel parking scares me to death. I passed this time though, so no more bumming rides.
Then after a long wait at the DMV, my dad and I drove to Boston. I told him about C and he's fine with it. such a big sigh of relief.
the bad thing was, I ate such crap. I had a cookie at my teacher's baby shower and fried chicken for dinner. ew
Friday
We went to Boston to visit my college for accepted students day. It was a lot of fun. I met my professors and lots of the kids I'll be in classes with next year. I cannot wait until next year after yesterday.
again, bad intake. I was just like "fuck it! I don't want to look like a freak in front of people who matter" so I ate. but not too much, I think about 1000. It's all about portion size
On the long drive home I texted boy for a while. He asked me out to a date on Saturday (today) and I said yes.... I know. I'm freaking out too.
Saturday
I got up early for a Saturday for track practice. We ran 12 100 meters... kill me. But at least it was a good workout to burn what I ate the past two days. Then boy took me to breakfast. I had grapefruit juice and one slice of french toast. He is sooo cute! I cut my french toast up small and ate it slow because I was afraid to look like a pig. (btw, it's a tricky line to walk. How do you not look like a glutinous pig but then also look like you don't think about eating?) Then he drove me home and kissed me "see you later". I love that. then I laid out back on the hammock to try in vain to give my paper white skin some color.
I'm nervous about tonight. And about the whole boy thing. I know he likes me, I mean he keeps saying he does and acts that way, but I somehow can't believe it. I can't see what he sees in me. Is it that he likes that I like him? or do I genuinely have some attractive quality? I wish I could feel pretty and not so disgusting all the time.
I need to relax.
honey, you;re beautiful. and that boy better treat you like a princess. yay for the license! and good luck with the boy. <3 stay lovely.
ReplyDeleteThat's great you were able to get your license! Don't feel bad about the age- I was 19 when I got mine! A lot of folks even wait until their 20s to get their diver's license! I bet the boy genuinely likes you because you're an attractive, amazing, sweet person- even though I've never met you in real life & only know what you've wrote on Blogger- but you do come across as a very sweet person. I hope you date went very, very well and you two enjoyed your time together :)
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Yay for the license!! :) College is gonna be so great!
ReplyDeleteI am sure he likes you for who you are, because you are so sweet, amazing and beautiful. Good luck with him, hope he treats you well :)
Love
~ Meg