His family is really into hockey so after dinner we watched the game. I went to the basement to watch with C and his parents went upstairs. Another thing about C- I had no idea how wealthy he is. I mean, I knew he was rich, but he is seriously rich. His house is enormous and decorated really beautifully. Everything just looks like it's dripping in money. So we watched the game downstairs in the "theater" which had 2 rows of plush red leather couches, that cool industrial lighting you see in films, signed movie posters, and a (I kid you not) 72 inch television. I was speechless. who the heck has this kind of money? it blows my mind.
So anyway, the hockey game. I know nothing about hockey, but as it ended up, that didn't really matter. We played a nice game of tonsil hockey instead ;) I have never made out before, and it was kinda weird... but really fun at the same time. I let him go further than I ever thought I would let a high school boy, and it kinda surprised me that he wanted to. He's this tall, muscle-y, hot guy and I'm short and pudgy and pretty average looking, if not ugly. (and sorry if this is tmi) I let his hand go up my shirt and wander over my butt and down my thighs. I'm fat. why the heck is he even interested? I don't know... I guess I'm just happy he likes me cause I like him a lot. I was so afraid the whole time of him being like "gosh, you're heavy!" whenever I was on top. I know that both of us had a good time fooling around, I just wish I looked better.
okay. my promiscuous paragraph is over. you can uncover your eyes now. lol sorry if I give too much detail where no one wants to know. I have no idea of the blog etiquette for this situation.I need to lose weight, girls. No more 'fuck it' days. I want to feel like I deserve this. And his filthy rich family has a pool. yes, a pool. Which means swim suits. Which mean I better not have jiggle thighs and fat stomach. SGD is sort of failing. And I've been gaining the past few days. I was a 132 on monday and now I'm back up to 135. I guess I can't expect to keep weight off that I lost so quickly when I'm eating only crap. I need to get back under control. I think I'm going to go on the search for a new diet. any suggestions?
Lots of love to all!
xx Jackie
It's good that you had fun! It sounds like you're really into this boy. lol
ReplyDeleteI love making out. My boyfriend and I broke up in January, so I'm kind of in withdrawal. Lol. I'm glad you had a nice time with Connor. <3
ReplyDeleteGlad you had a good time with Connor! His home sound really beautiful. I'm happy that people have money like that, but at the same time it makes the average folks feel like they don't have much at all. I bet Connor thinks you're beautiful, regardless of now you feel about yourself :). You can totally get back on track! Even though we all have those "screw it" days, we can overcome that desire to overeat. You have the ability to turn those "screw it" days into really awesome days.
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Hehe, that's so cute! (don't worry, I've seen PLENTY of detailed sex descriptions on here, most people seem to just treat blogger like a diary with that) I <3 making out & petting with my Matty. It's funny, our positions are kinda reversed, I'm the one whos parents have money (not THAT much, like, wow at your boy) & he's the one whos parents are split :/
ReplyDeleteWork hard girly & you'll lose those pounds, remember, it's all up to you and you CAN do it!
Awww I'm glad you had a good time and that definitely wasn't tmi, so don't worry! This is adorable, I'm so happy things are going well with the boy thing for you!
ReplyDeleteI'm very glad you had a great time with Connor! I always feel a bit envious when I'm visiting someone with a huge, beautiful home, but I know that those people are successful because they worked hard and they deserve nice things. I'm sure Connor thinks you're absolutely gorgeous, don't be too hard on yourself. I'm proud of your determination, I know you can do it! :)
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