Jackie: "no thanks"
Brain: good work, Jax, maybe if you stayed hungry all day...?
Dad: "You don't eat much lately"
Brain: fuck!
Jackie: "Yes I do. I had cereal before you came down stairs"
Brain: Liar. Well, gotta do what you gotta do
I had pasta for lunch. I mean, it wasn't very much, but my dad saw me make it. that counts for something, right? I'm not anorexic. I'm pro-ana. But he has always been after me to be healthier and cut down. I'm doing that, aren't I?
I'm trying so hard to convince myself I'm doing the right thing. But what if I'm not? I don't want to hurt anyone.
in other news,
The date went really well last night. Boy treated me really nicely :) I had a veggie and shrimp stir-fry (about 375) which I hope looked okay to him. At the movies we ended up being those annoying teenagers who don't watch much of the film... haha I guess I'm a better kisser than I thought I was.
It's fun being 17 and irresponsible. kissing too much and driving too fast. We even trespassed onto someone's lawn just to look at the view from the mountain. He's so tall that I have to tippy-toe to kiss him. oh 17... there's really nothing like it.
I like him. I'm just afraid of things going further and me still being fat. I need to lose weight. I mean, I don't want him touching my stomach while I'm still this fat. I want to deserve this.
17 was fab. Kissing is fab. You sound like you had a great time darling, thanks for making my day a bit brighter!
ReplyDeleteConnor sounds like a very sweet guy! I'm so happy you had an amazing time on your date. :)
ReplyDeleteTo be 17 or 18 again! xx
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