lots and lots of 'splainin. that's what I've been doing. and I have signs form everywhere telling me to stop. like from my horoscope and my scale broke and my dad telling me I need to pack a bigger lunch and just the universe in general. except, of course, from the mirror. she's still telling me not to eat. and she's the reason I started this in the beginning.
basically, my friends are black mailing me into eating. like, eat lunch or we'll tell your dad on you and get you a lifetime of guilt and embarrassment and a whole lot of therapy sessions. it sucks.
but I can't give this up. I just can't. partly it's the girls here, and partly it's the catharsis of writing without judgement. but most of it is that I need to look better. I need to be thin.
and i need to gain control of my eating. this stress is making me eat so much. plus they're watching me eat lunch now. grrreeaattt
Just remember, regardless of how much you eat, you're still beautiful!
ReplyDeleteOh hun. That's awful. Your friends obviously have no idea how to deal with anas. Maybe you should change the layour of this blog and not use real names? Or enter a post that lies, and ask your friend about the blog. Then say look, thats not me. or something. Idk love, but I hope it gets better soon.
ReplyDeleteAs for the weight watchers, remember-I'm only losing because I took about a month to raise my metabolism up. If you decided to start, you would gain for about a month. But honestly, I think it's worth it. :)
i wanted to text you to see if you were okay today, but i didnt just in case they would look. i hope your alright, dear. and i know its hard with everyone watching you, but stay strong and do whatever you think is right. <3
ReplyDeleteI hope everything will blow over for you soon...There's always summer and then you'll be away at college. But your friends are just concerned and showing that they're there for you, they just don't understand how much that can stress someone with eating problems out. Sending you my love!
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry that your friends found out. They sound sweet though, for doing what they think is best for you. I really hope everything works out soon. I'm truly glad you're back, I was so crushed when your blog disappeared for a while. We really missed you. Good luck and stay beautiful!
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