I can't restrict anymore. whywhywhywhywhy??? I need to eat healthier and less. And I need to exercise. blehh
Today I went to the symphony with my grandparents. Beethoven's ninth was gorgeous! I have the attention span of a gnat do it was a little challenging for me in that department, but totally worth it. I went to church early this morning so we could go. I had a half of a half of a half a bagel for breakfast and told my dad I ate the whole thing. But he was still on my case about not eating lunch and then trying to avoid dinner. He makes it so hard for me to lose weight without feeling guilty. So I ended up having pizza with my family. shoot me.
And guess what else?! we're all alive! that's right! the rapture was indeed (as expected) a hoax. Boy sent me this cute message at like 5:30 (right before the predicted rapture time) "just in case the rapture bs is real- i <3 you."oh. em. eff. gee.
he basically said the L word. he is tiptoeing on dangerous ground. cause we've been dating for how long now? like a month? has it even been a month? that's waaaay too fast in my book. if he says it in person I'll make him take it back. I am not ready for that.
We've been kissing ( haha and other stuff but we won't get into that...) a lot in his car. It's totally 17 cliche, but it's also really fun. Mostly it's a way for me to get out of talking. I sound more like the guy in the relationship now. lol. but anyways. the point: I have eyes that tell you exactly what I'm thinking. I wish my eyes were more like mirrors rather than windows. So he can totally tell when I'm thinking about something negative. "what's wrong?" he asks "nothing." I say. "you can tell me, you know" he reminds me "I know" I remind him back. 'I won't hurt you" he says. And then he gives me a look of total sincerity that lets me know I picked a good guy. And I can't stand to tell him anymore than I already have. So I just kiss him. And keep kissing him until both of us forget I was ever upset.
I need to do well this week. I'm going back to my old friend SGD. I need to be 129 by the time my scale is fixed and prom is less than two weeks away. think secret, think healthy, think skinny.
Oh my, he sounds wonderful. A month is a bit too fast, though. I hope everything works out alright. I'm sure it will :)
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ReplyDeleteLol your pictures are making me crave some raspberries.
But a month is kinda fast, so I get that you're freaking out a little bit...it is kinda exciting though!
That whole "rapture at exactly 6 pm thing" made me laugh! No wonder folks think Christian's are loons- it's because of stupid stuff like that! I agree with you, a guy saying he loves me after only a month of us being together- that's way too fast! I would be like, "How you do love me when you really don't know anything about me? Love takes time..." I really like what you said- about having eyes as mirrors rather than windows...I wish mine were like that! ♥
ReplyDeleteMaybe if he says he loves you, he actually means it. BUT you don't have to say it back if you don't want to. He sounds like a sweet guy, though.
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