I went to sleep at 9 and woke up at 11 this morning. I slept for 14 hours.. haha I must have really needed it. I dreamed about dresses and going shopping, which is something I've been doing a lot more lately. I love shopping. I love buying new clothes, I love wearing them. I love imagining the person I could be if I only had those pants. And in this weight-maintaining phase, I can be sure that a size 6 will fit me for a while longer.
However, I am worried about money. I've spent a lot more than I've made in the past two months, and it's worrying me. of course, living in the city is expensive, but I think I need to make some cuts. plus I need to make better use of my meal plan. I have waayyy too much money left on my card for this time of year. I'm almost half way through it but we're well pas the half way mark on the semester. so the question we need to ask is this- how am i not losing weight if I've been under spending? did I really screw up my metabolism that much this year that I can't eat like a normal person without gaining?
This morning/afternoon I wrote some of my essay and went to the gym. I know, shocking. I burned around 300 calories, I think. So not great, but loads better than I've been doing lately. Bad thing is, the gym inspires me not to eat. not like, eat healthy, but just stop eating all together. And I know that makes me lose weight, but I gain it back in like a week.
Now I'm listening to music from someone else's itunes library. it's great, I have access to like 50 people's music, and no body minds. I'm attempting to do homework and decide where I should go tonight, but I can't choose. thai food for my friend's roommate's birthday or an unknown party in cambridge? hmm. if it's a question of calories then the party wins (I don't count alcohol calories since I don't drink very often) but if it's a question of loyalty and comfort then I should go to the thai food thing. I just don't know.
Prep's been texting me in that nice, boyfriend-ish way. I forgot how much I missed that. I like having him, I just hope I don't screw it up.
Sometimes we forget that we need some time to ourselves, but it's almost always worth it. And same with sleep, you don't think you're too tired until you sleep half a day away! I'm glad you were able to get some work done and get a workout it, I hope you had a good time with the birthday or party.
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