sunrise

Last night... where do I even begin?

(let's start at the very beginning, that's a very good place to start...)


I went to dinner with prep before this church thing that we do on Friday nights. I ate a salad and some white rice. I also had some milk.
We went to the church thing, and I had an average time.
After, a group of us got tea. Prep came along and told me I was beautiful despite the rain. I'm glad he's so deranged in a nice way. who in their right mind would call me beautiful?
Prep had to go finish his work before his job on Saturday morning. I went to hang with some girls. We had a nice time goofing off.
We went as a group to a "pep rally" of sorts. (the quotation marks are necessary because my school barely has sports, it's kinda a joke) and met up with some guys we know.
Most of the girls went home except me and one other. the boys, plus one who I begged to come with us named J walked down to the river. I fooled one of them into thinking I'm a musical theater major.
We came home and I went up to the common room, where I hung out with more people.
Then I stumbled into this guy's Steve's suite, I was tired and so sad but hiding it behind some giggles and energy. I just couldn't go back and sleep, I couldn't be alone with my thoughts. Steve and I talked for a little before J came out of his room asking about the noise. I forgot he lived there also.
Soon Steve left and it was just me and J talking. We talked for a long time, he's a funny guy. Very suave, but not in the traditional sense of the word. Around 5 am I was laying against his chest and he put his arm around me. He asked what impression I had of this night and I said it was nice. And he said that other people might think we were a little more than friends by how we were snuggling like that.
I tried to set it straight, I really wasn't interested in him like that. We kept talking, but things were a little strained, not as easy as before.
Then he asks if I'd like to go for a walk. So I go with him, and we watch the sunrise over the harbor.
Talking about all the things that really matter most, like life and love and happiness and then the Holy Ghost.
After the sun was a few centimeters from the horizon, we walked back home and got some Starbucks. We sat and talked more, sweet and easy like old friends.
Finally, at 10 am, we said goodnight and went back to go to sleep.

I have a costume party tonight. I'm going as queen frostine and some girl down the hall is doing my make up. I'm excited.
what was last night? none of it makes much sense. I don't know if J and I are friends, or just two people who shared an evening.