funny thing is, I'm planning on binging. I'm gonna go have some cookies in the common room and then gorge on goldfish and hot apple cider with my friends. yeah. I know I'm terrible at this. I'm just sort of accepting my defeat and making it a part of me. I sound pathetic and defeatist, but what else is new?
I've taken to digging my finger nails into my skin until I bleed. it's great, I can feel the pain anytime I think I need to. no one notices that you're gripping your arm so tight that your knuckles are turning white and and your arm is bleeding. I never thought I'd be the type to self harm. but it's the only way to distract myself from the ocean of thoughts that's drowning me.
Jackie... :(
ReplyDeleteDon't accept defeat, you're better than that and I know you have the determination in you! It breaks my heart that you're self-harming, it truly does. You're such a beautiful, amazing person, and you deserve the same happiness and smiles that you give the people around you. I'm here, if you ever need an ear to listen. Much love. <3
ReplyDeleteHi hun,
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog, we are really similar in stats! I've been reading through your posts and they are so interesting, and give me motivation! Please keep writing.
If you can find the time, I'd be honoured if you'd follow my blog too.
Much love and stay motivated!