131, hallelujah

It's bewilderingly easy to skip meals at college. Living independently means I can can eat nothing all day, and nobody will suspect a thing. there is no reason for someone not to believe you when you say you just ate with other people. I kind of wish there was someone to look out for me, and tell me I need to eat something. I wish someone was paying attention.

but then again, if I were being watched like before (not in a conscious way, but my family eats dinner together so it's noticed if you don't touch your food) I'd never have gotten through yesterday without eating. Or friday, or saturday for that matter. and then I wouldn't have been 131 this morning. i was 131 lbs this morning! it's sad that my weight has been almost exactly the same for months, but this is the first big change I've seen in a longgg time. I guess my on/off dieting was at least good for keeping me from gaining.

Sofia and I are fasting today. She's starting the ABC again, too, so wish her luck. I want to fast until I see 129 on my scale. I just hope that happens by tomorrow morning. I plan to break fast with an apple and then do a liquid fast until friday. I heard that breaking fast with a solid food is good for you in some way, but I forget why.

besides weight loss, this fast is also saving me money on my college meal plan. I was basically burning money on food, and since thursday I've only spent 12 dollars.

I'm meeting the guy I met on the boat cruise on last saturday for a dance on thursday night. I knew that on Sunday, but then he texted me to ask if I wanted to hang out before the dance, too. I really like him, and it seems he likes me too. I'll call him California Now he's an added inspiration to be skinny. I'll make it a mantra in my head: 118 by Christmas