stupid, huh?

I'm so undecided. I fast all day one day and then swear I'll never do it again but end up fasting. I either eat junk with my friends or eat healthy (sorta) alone or (most often lately) I eat nothing at all. none of these options are really good for me, but I can't figure out how to eat right and not be miserable.

I have a birthday party tonight and already had granola for breakfast. I want help, but I want to get down to 118 before I ask for it. lol, that sounds stupid, huh?