there is a girl in the suite next door that is like 5'8 and probably around 98 pounds. she is an ana goddess.
ugh... I was so stressed out today after the meet and greet/ lecture with my new professors. The way they were talking, I'm doubting I'll make it even a month a college. which sucks, because I really don't want to disappoint everyone by coming home without a diploma. sigh. I'm screwed. so in my sadness, I ate almost an entire bag of goldfish. not good. that's 840 calories, btw. luckily I didn't eat much else today, but still- goldfish have a ton of salt and carbs and fat.
My roommate finally arrived and she's really nice. she isn't thin but she's pretty. one of those rare girls who could actually pass as a good plus size model. she wears weight well, unlike me. I think I was meant to be a petite little 100 pound something, but i screwed myself up. I'll add that to the list of personal failures.
I'm ABSOLUTELY positive that college will get better.
ReplyDeleteFuck the calories, they sounded needed.
At least you're smaller then your roommate! and you are just as gorgeous (don't know what she looks like obviously, but I know what you do!)
Use college to: ditch your old bad habits, be whoever you fucking want to, the stress will last, but definitely lessen, just have a good time!
xxx
glad your roomie is nice. that'll help a lot of everyday things. i love goldfish but i can't have them anymore. i'm a little jealous. just a tip, burn your list of personal failures. hang in there, darling. you're a fantastic collegiate little creature.
ReplyDeletexoxo
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cheer up, cheer up!
ReplyDeleteand DAMN THAT GIRL NEXT DOOR. the only thing more depressing than someone your height who's thinner than you is someone taller than you who weighs less than you.
i feel your pain. don't worry about it.