hiccup

today is the last day of SGD cycle 2. it went so quickly! total I've lost about 4 pounds, which really doesn't feel like that much. But with all the binges I've had, I'll take it. I know I don't deserve a good outcome this time around. will the third time be the charm? I really want to be 120 by June 6th (prom). That means 18 pounds in a little over 2 months. not impossible, but it'll be a challenge.

last day of SGD is a fast and so far so good. I've only had water and I'm planning to keep it that way. my back-up plan is some tea if I feel like I just want to stuff my face, but hopefully I can hold out till I go to bed. the only thing is, I've had these hiccups for like an hour now and they won't go away, even with water. I don't think it's fast related, but it's still annoying.

I bought some sun-in (the stuff you spray in your hair to make it turn blond in the sun) today. I'm so excited to be blond! my hair color is kinda boring, so I'm ready for a change. just cross your fingers it doesn't turn out a disaster!


Ariana- I think you're right about the friend thing. I'm just waiting for this high school drama to be over. but thanks for the advice, it really makes this all seem a lot more normal and less like I'm an irrational freak.

Lu- Oh my god, living in SF would be awesome! we could meet up for yoga and tea and it would be awesome! haha we'd be those two skinny friends who everybody wants to be. I can see it now... sigh... :) thanks for being here for me. you're support means the world. xx

and one more random thought- I've been thinking for a long time about changing my name to Jaclyn. my real name is Jacqueline, so really I'd just be switching nick names. I don't know, I've been Jackie forever, and I want to change before I go away to school. hmm. we'll see.

xoxo Jackie/Jaclyn :P