binge binge binge binge binge
yuck yuck yuck yuck yuck : /
but luckily it didn't matter. even the chocolate pudding didn't put me over my goal net calories. I started track practices today, which was fun even though I am the worst javelin thrower in the history of the universe. I burned about 400 I think. Then it was opening night of my musical which burned probably another 300 with all the jumping around and dancing I was doing. It was all day on my feet, so when I got home for a half hour I stuffed my face. ugh. if I could have only resisted this might have been a negative day. boo. fuck these binges!
one good thing though- 138.6 this morning! yay :) I'll check off 140 now I think.
my track coach was happy to see me today. He said (exact quote) "you've certainly changed your body shape" changed my body shape? what the fuck?! I'll take that to mean I look thinner, but I'm still hurt. I mean, that could only mean that I used to look god-awful since I look like a baby whale right now.
anyway
I can't wait for the next two shows. I love performing, it's wonderful. the applause and the make-up and the costumes and all the energy. love it! there is just one part I hate- when everyone else looks so much cuter than I do. They all look sharp and rocker-chic in their 80's costumes, while I look soft and dumpy in a cut-up tee that only shows off my lack of shoulder bones.
much love to all of you, hope you didn't miss me too much this week <3
xoxo
Do you do theatre? (:
ReplyDeleteYay! Cross off 140, have fun at track, have fun performing!! Sounds like a great day!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like theatre is a true passion for you. (plus it's a great distraction and a way of burning calories!) ;)
ReplyDeleteUgh, am jealous. I got down to 136 and then mysteriously jumped back up to 140. I hope your loss is permanent though! :)