Day Dream

I want to just lie down and think right there. in the midst of all that beauty. But I dont want anyone there with me. I want to be alone with the flowers and the sunshine and the mountain. No camera to distract from living right now. Because if all that stuff was there, all that real life, I wouldn't enjoy it. I'd have to think of how I looked and remember how ugly I am. Remember that no matter what I wear or put on my face or do to my hair, I will never be that girl who fits in this picture. I'd be an ugly fat alien. If anyone saw me there, or worse had a picture, the whole thing would be lesser. less beautiful. it's a pity, really. when all I want is beauty and because I'm me I'll never have it.