i've been on the verge of tears for past hour. im restless and bottomed-out sad.
i dont know why i'm suddenly so angry and bitter and irritable
and random
matt almost called me pretty today. but the point is he didn't. because im not
im on a crash diet. and i dont think i've even lost any weight.
everything seems so much more shallow and stupid than it used to
i sort of want to cut just to feel the pain. is that stupid?
my nail polish is chipped off, and it bugs me
i'm too lazy to work out right now
anyone know any good books that just make you cry?
i hate thinspo at the moment. it's depressing me.
i dont want my friends anymore. i just want to evaporate. i dont want them to remember me.
i almost wrote to prateek today. i miss him like hell. i just want him to call me just to say i love you like he used to.
my music sucks. i need new music.
im the ugliest person in my family.
i envy every girl skinnier than me even if they're just average.
and now im crying.
It's hard, it hurts and it takes forever, but it does come with determination, I know you can do it.
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