all together we are alone

before i came here
i thought i was the only one
i thought i was the only person
who noticed the gap
and the defined jaw lines
and the collar bones
the hip bones
and the birdy little wrists

well, not really
i knew everyone thought they were beautiful
but i thought it was weird
that i dreamed of them

i thought it was strange
that i stared at girls in bikinis
am i a lesbian?
no
i dont want to kiss them
i dont want to fuck around
i just want to be them
slip inside their skin and live their life
be just as beautiful

but then i found this world
of broken mirrors
and distorted glass
where the skinny girls think they're fat
and the fat girls think they're fatter

i slipped into this place
became apart of the skin
pseudo-living the lives of skinny girls
and fat girls getting skinny
a place where gorging on pretty pictures is okay
where it's okay to gawk
and fall in love with hip bones
and collar bones
and birdy little wrists

our thoughts are written down
in erasable stone
and we whisper words of silent encouragement
wishing each other luck in our shared battle

i know i am new here
there are girls with deeper scars
who have seen the brutality
they are veterans of bigger fights than i have seen
but all along
through my whole existence i knew
i was always meant to join this war
to hold hands with skinny fingers
and walk towards a prettier version of ourselves
all together we are alone