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ten things I want to tell ten people right now

1 A- I love you so much but I don't know how to

2 Dad- I don't like your new goatee. it's stupid

3 K- you're super fake, but you're beautiful so I love you

4 N- your butt looked good in those pants today. I swear I'm not a lesbian, I just like your butt. 

5 D- I'm glad you like me but I don't understand why. and you are the least traditional gay best friend ever

6 P- just say sorry and get over it. I'd forgive you but you have to ask for it

7 Mme- your class is terrible. and you seriously need to take care of yourself

8 M- thank you. I needed that. 

9 C- get a haircut

10 M- I need your help. Don't let me do this alone

Nine things about me

1 Radio is the love of my life. (and Jad Abumrad... sigh...)

2 I love grilled cheese with lemonade

3 I can't tell left from right most of the time

4 When I'm upset I do inappropriate things

5 One of my eyelashes is a lot longer than the rest of them

6 I lost my favorite ring and I'm afraid that it means bad luck or something

7 Red lipstick gives me confidence

8 I hate onions

9 My favorite pair of underwear have elephants on them

Eight ways to win my heart

1 tell me I'm beautiful

2 be nice to your parents

3 have good music taste

4 be confident in who you are

5 show interest in me

6 being beautiful never hurt anyone

7 hug me often

8 never forget my birthday

Seven things that cross my mind a lot

1 I'm disgusting

2 the urge to randomly kiss someone

3 Calorie counts

4 lists of things I need to get done

5 ways to get attention

6 how pretty other people are

7 what if emerson and writing isn't what I want?

Six things I wish I hadn't done

1 gained weight

2 quit ballet ( i was like 6 but for some reason I have this idea in my head that if I kept with it I'd be beautiful and thin and perfect)

3 been mean to prateek

4 taken AP stats

5 be mean to anyone

6 eat ( i wish that all the time, most of all)

Five people that mean a lot to me (in no order)

1 A

2 D

3 Aunt S. and Uncle S.

4 P

5 D

Four turn offs

1 when people are mean to their parents

2 making me feel needy or pathetic (especially when I'm not acting like that)

3 self centeredness

4 strange breathing/ loud breathing

Three turn ons

1 interest in me

2 stubble

3 getting really close

Two emoticons that describe me at the moment

1 :P

2 :s

One confession

1 My suicide attempt failed. But I'm not sure if it was because I wasn't committed enough to dying or because something or someone out there saved me and I have some other purpose. It comes down to whether or not you believe in angels and fate and magic and all that. I'm not sure what to believe.